Still Thinking...

So I've still been questioning all the life issues alluded to below.

And maybe, just maybe, I've finally reached a concrete resolution. It feels good now - whether I'll wake up tomorrow and think this with the same conviction remains to be seen. But I'm going to document this feeling now so I can revisit it and hopefully be persuaded once more if need be.

I realise that this blog is becoming increasingly personal, but hey, I guess worse things could happen.

So I'm feeling scared of the bigness of life. Scared of the completeness, and both the potential closeness or extreme distance of death.

But I've realised that my fear of my life amounting to nothing will only come true if I sit around thinking it. Self fulfilling prophecy style.

To draw upon a profound example, if J.K. Rowling just decided life was too complicated and transient to be worth trying anything in, we wouldn't have Harry Potter. A world which gives so many children great, great joy (and a great many adults too).

If all the people who ever wrote books, poems, music, or films just gave in to abject despair and terror at the face of mortality, we'd all be so much poorer.

To quote a great philosopher of our time:

Polly: Well what's the point of being alive?
Basil: I don't know, but we're stuck with it.

And stuck with it I am. I don't know for how long, but that's not for me to decide. As Gandalf wisely points out to a despairing Frodo, "we have only to decide what to do with the time that is given to us."

So clearly I've drawn upon some pretty significant evidence to support my contention here.

It's not that I need to stop thinking about this - I just need to remember the idea above, I guess...that just because life is messy and all over the shop and without any guarantees doesn't mean anyone should ever live in fear. Instead we can only hope to do good things, share love, enjoy what we have, and work for something better.

I know, I know, you now realise with absolute certainty why I'm not a great philosopher. And this is sounding like the last ten minutes of a gazillion films and stuff. But now I'm realising and feeling it for myself. Until now it was just a rote learnt idea for me.

I'm just doing my best to sort my head out.

There we go. All fixed.

UNTIL NEXT TIME...(I promise I will spare you any more...unless you find it thought provoking too, in which case comment so I can see what you're thinking.)